Oct 28 2007
In Dallas
I’m at my parents’ house in Dallas installing some updates on their computer. While I wait for the downloads to finish, I thought I’d write a couple quick lines.
Dallas
I lived in Dallas for nearly 20 years. The entire time I lived here I felt uncomfortable. It was as if I didn’t belong here or I didn’t have an identity. I was never able to pinpoint exactly what it was or how to describe it. Whenever I come back for a quick visit, I feel the same way. It’s very strange.
The people here make me uncomfortable. It seems that everyone is sizing everyone else up, waiting for an opportunity to hurt or cheat someone else if the result is that the cheater ends up a little bit ahead. The purpose of people’s lives here are to get the attention and admiration of others at any cost. It’s like a nasty high school popularity contest. I simply won’t play that game and I think that’s why I never felt like I had an identity while I lived in this city and why I feel out of place when I come back to visit. I understand that my comments and feelings about the people here are unreasonable and untrue (probably. mostly.) and it is my own paranoia that is the problem. Whatever. People in Dallas still creep me out.
For the record, I have friends here that aren’t out to get me and don’t creep me out. But I never had a lot of friends here that I truly trusted. The ones I’ve kept are legitimately good people.
Photography
I intended to shoot photos the entire time I was here, and for the most part I did. But I don’t think I have any photos that are worth keeping and that disappoints me terribly. Dallas has some of the most photogenic architecture that I’ve ever seen and I should have been able to leave here with something to show, but I just didn’t get it done. I think it was combination of lack of planning and lack of time to plan that is going to have me leaving here empty handed. What a f***ing waste to shoot photos for an entire weekend and have no good shots. Loser.
Rockies
Nobody here knows that the Colorado Rockies are in the World Series. Some people don’t know that the Colorado Rockies are a Major League baseball team. That is working out to Colorado’s favor though, considering that they are about to be swept in the championship. And, this after sweeping the first two teams they faced in the playoffs. Dorrie and I have tickets to game five tomorrow night. I almost hope that the Rox lose tonight so we don’t have to drag this out any longer and watch them get their asses handed to them with Beckett on the mound.